Bloggin 365: Day 3

I have candles burning and I’m sitting quietly thinking….. waiting for the right words to write. Wondering what I am going to share and knowing I won’t know until something reveals itself. I’m filled with nervous energy but I have clarity about why I feel like this. These are unscripted and relatively unfiltered thoughts I am about to share and that’s where the nervous energy comes from. I say relatively because I’m not ready to be fully naked yet, in fact I may never be.

I can hear the naysayer’s and detractors giving negative labels to this. I can even hear folks who truly mean well asking why I would be so candid and share so much. Well, see if you can understand this: I was brought to this point, I didn’t choose this journey. I’m not talking about some hocus pocus or some cosmic alignment of the stars. I’m saying that while doing something against my logic and creating my own discomfort by committing to doing something so revealing as to share 365 days of thinking is about responding to a call I can’t and won’t attempt any further to explain.

Who will be pushed away and who will I attract with this sharing? Who will get hurt feelings and who will get pissed off by the observations I make? How much will be taken out of context or cause someone to think they know me because of what I share?

If you are looking for anything specific other than unscripted free flow you are already on the fast track to disappointment.  (or maybe not) When one honestly shares,  many things are revealed to the hearer / reader of the words and at times even to the one speaking / writing them. I write and then listen knowing something awesome is coming to awareness for me.

This is your window into my life and apparently because you are reading this something is here for you. I don’t profess to know what that is but I encourage you to return as often as you are moved to. You are supposed to be here anyway: there are no accidents. I’m supposed to be here too!

God was here today! REL.