Bloggin 365: Day 5
October 24, 2009 by Roger E Lear
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I miss her. I miss how she said I love you seemingly unprompted by anything I had done. I miss each syllable she sang as she sang to me. I miss the way I felt when she executed each run effortlessly. I miss how she would give herself to me and then blamed me for her inability to resist. I miss the beginning of us, which led me to the first real exposure of my heart. I miss the woman who showed me I was not ready? I. Miss. Her.
I miss him. I miss his consistency and strength. I miss the feeling I had when I made the discovery that he cheated me in checkers when I was a boy. His belief being that if I could beat him somehow I would think I could out think him in other areas. He was right! I miss the wisdom of this man that I attempted to challenge as often as I felt I could. I miss my uncle who played the roll of father, let me steer the car from the passenger seat, took me to football games and defended me in public even when I was wrong. I miss this man driven by principal who voiced strong opinions and though rarely wrong to my knowledge, he was quick to admit when he was. I miss you DeNorris Ewing.
I miss them. We marched together, yelled statements of unity together and were wet and cold together. We were tired and supportive of each other knowing if one of us failed all of us would. They gave me their strength to share and I did the same. For a time there was no I, only we and during this time I became a stronger me. The last time I saw them we all went our separate ways wishing each other well. Strangers transformed into family through 90 days of training. I have not seen one of them since then. They were present for the impartation of character that even now works to create a better me. I. Miss. Them.
Because of the many that have touched me in my life, I can reflect and say thank you father because they were sent by God to give something to me. Not the least of which are fond memories. I may not know in any great measure the amount of individuals I have touched, but I am grateful that I too am missed. Hummmmmmmm.
God was here today. REL!
There is something so wonderful about missing someone though…When you miss someone, your mind instantly accesses sweet memories of the person. Instantly, you are sitting next to the person in a car, remembering the person’s laughter in your ear, memorizing their heartbeat…and the love feelings flood back and feel just as good as the first time. Everytime you bring your special people back with your imagination, it creates the same love energy, they will feel it, wherever they are, I even believe that those that we miss that have passed on recieve the love energy we send reliving wonderful memories. Keeps them “alive”. Missing can be difficult…but it feels so good too…